Hi, Guys: Well I decided to give this blogging thing another try. Almost gave up because of my atrocious typing, gotta look down to find the right key. And that takes up quite a bit of time. You think of something to type and look down to find the right key you forget what it is you have to say.

Well today was an interesting day. The apartment manager escorted the exterminators around the complex. The night before I set out everything on the counter so as to make it easier for the exterminators. They sprayed the insides of the cabinets and did the bathroom cabinets also.

Then the genius that I am I decided to do an early spring cleaning. So I washed all the dishes clean or dirty. Waited for the spray to dry and then laid paper on the bottom of the cabinets and drawers.

Pretty exciting stuff here ain't it. But I do digress. While waiting to put up the dishes and groceries. I made a play list of all the songs I'd heard and loved since a kid. I did manly songs romantic songs . Hey! hey! don't laugh okay!! I also like some chick movies, is that alright with some of you guys. If not suck on it. I like what I like i also like Opera too. so there. I sent a few to a woman, who's still pissed at me. But I figure if I let her go but still hang around, not too often. Perhaps I might get another shot. Hey, She's worth it I just didn't realize it until now. Perhaps too late but my motto don't ever say never. She made that mistake, by saying it to me. The ol' man told me once he'd said something awf ul to his girl friend, He spent a year apologizing wrote songs stood out her window begging to be forgiven, she would drown him. She kept tellin to get lost she didn't want him anymore. They both said and did hateful things one another. But the Ol' man just kept on plowing away. I asked him did he ever get another chance. He smiled and looked over to my grinning mother saying, yep. He's been dead for 24yrs. now. I'm 55yrs old now. He died January 1986. And every year I get into a funk this year was no different except for one difference i met some one over the internet was going pretty good, until January. And like clock work I went into my little funk and stayed there until February. During that time my internet went down along with my telephone and televison. Because of some idiot at the home office of my cable company decided I was late paying my bill. Now, i pride myself of paying my bills on time, sometimes ahead of time. For almost two months I did battle with the cable company. They were sure I would gladly pay the alleged areared payment. But unfortunately for them I too keep records very detailed records, almoost tio the point of being what the call anal. Trust me when I say this , screw me and I can be the most ruthless son of a bitch in the world. The one weakness corporations have is a shit load of attorneys. While am only one person thus I have more time on my hands. And believe me I used my time wisely gathering up all of my records from the last year. Then i went to the library looking up Corporate laws. Interesting wht you can accomplished when you've also lost you job, in the process, My mind was consumed with getting even no matter the cost. Unfortunately in my zest to win against the cable company I'd forgotten somebody. Though I could reconnect I still was unable to send out e-mails. and my phone was still not turned on....ie I could hear the phone ring but whenever i tried to speak the son of a bitch wen t dead. My friend called 2-3 times a day for a whole month. Unfortuantely i could't connect with her. finally after two weeks I discovered something a little corner in my e-mail, called a chat section. I only found out about it by accident. I won't go into details but needless to say i was able to converse with her. And all hell broke loose, basically and to the point quote unquote she didn't want to hear my reason for
not communicating with her. Unf ortunately my response to her was shall we say a stupid one. I acted rathe nonchallant, in other words I did the man thingand said " Okay" as if I didn't give a damn. I am hee to say I did care. Unfortunately I misintrepretated her response. Almost knocked me for a loop what she said next! I had no Idea what she said would feel like I'd been stabbed straight through my heart. And then it was on. A battle of getting even. Which I'm sorry to say I am very good at .I tore into like a pick through Ice. It was not pretty I said some very hurtful things . Before I knew it the damage had been done. yes I won but now she no longer wishes to hear from me. Thus my father. I wish he were here to advise me on how I can win her back the way my father did my mother.Everyday and Night I ache to hear her voice. I tried calling her and quite justly she hangs up . She says she blocked me from both sites. I don't believe it though , cause every time I go to this one site I see that she is on line. My other contacts don't show when they are on . She is the only one. I've got this nagging question if she didn't wish to hear my reasons for not contacting her. Why would she do so until I was able to answer. hmmmmm??? Perhaps I'm reading more into it than I should.

Friendship Gained and Lost

I just read an interesting and yet sad post, I won't devulge the persons name. But I recognized myself in her words.
My life is similar to hers. Or should I say was.
I am fifty five yrs old. I've had an interesting and diverse life. I've traveled the world thanks to Uncle Sam. Upon my return recently. I was greeted by my family with whom I haven't seen in over twenty years. While it was a joyous return it was not what I had hoped for. In the ensuing months there after. I discovered my family resembled Shakespeares Macbeth intrigue, betrayal eccetra. Folks I could not make this up. I wanted to reconnect with a woman with who I'd was I thought in love with since 7th grade. I found out where she lived and first telephoned her to my stunned shock her sister seeemed more glad to hear from me than she. In fact the woman didn't bother to take the call giving some half ass excuse she was putting her neice to sleep. Though her sister did her best to get her to take the call. She never did and I never called back. I know when someone doesn't want to be bothered. But to be as inconsiderate as that made me take a good look back at our friendship, I unfortunately came to the conclusion I was delusional. But then I did something unususal e-mailed this woman, A stranger I'd seen a magazine who resembled my enfactuation. I explained everrything , not expecting to hear from her. But a month later, I was shocked to recieve an e-mail from her stating how affected she was by my letter. So much so we struck up a friendship. In fact we telephoned every day 2-3 times. She grew on me . But in December I suffered what can only be described as a freak of nature illness. Which to this day nobody has been able to explain. I won't bore you with details but I did something that really didn't help our friendship and much to my sorow. Let's just say I hurt her not physically but with words. I was very abusive to her and now she no longer wishes to hear from me. As I sit here and pour my soul out. I will say this I do not deserve a second chance. I have pleaded begged and yes humiliated myself. I've come to realize that I may have pushed away my soul mate. I miss her very much!!! Men if you have some one special be careful what you say,sometimes it can be far worse than anything you can ever do.

Trotterhorse Artist Production's

Just so everyone knows the name of the company is : TROTTERHORSE
ARTIST
PRODUCTIONS.
It's CEO
th.watson jr.
It's logo is that of a wlid bucking horse with it's rider trying to get back up on it.
Our motto is: Life is be lived ;
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Legacy& Posterity

Been thinking of things lately. Just got my first printer/scanner/copier. The reason for getting it is two folds. One is to do my Art work put it on the internet and see what happens. To leave something on the internet for posterity. Something in the kin of leaving your name for all to see in the coming years. A legacy if you please. I hope to eventually plaster some of my art work on my blog page. Who knows may hap somebody out there may like it and wish to purchase it. I have no illusions , because of my late start but one must remember the internet offers changes that didn't exit 20 yrs ago. To me it is a level playing field where as I don't have to know any one to get my pictures seen. And isn't that what every one wants a chance. And not at the whim of some self absorbed person, who is so conceited that he or she thinks, they know what the masses want. Because they say so.