Hi, Guys: Well I decided to give this blogging thing another try. Almost gave up because of my atrocious typing, gotta look down to find the right key. And that takes up quite a bit of time. You think of something to type and look down to find the right key you forget what it is you have to say.

Well today was an interesting day. The apartment manager escorted the exterminators around the complex. The night before I set out everything on the counter so as to make it easier for the exterminators. They sprayed the insides of the cabinets and did the bathroom cabinets also.

Then the genius that I am I decided to do an early spring cleaning. So I washed all the dishes clean or dirty. Waited for the spray to dry and then laid paper on the bottom of the cabinets and drawers.

Pretty exciting stuff here ain't it. But I do digress. While waiting to put up the dishes and groceries. I made a play list of all the songs I'd heard and loved since a kid. I did manly songs romantic songs . Hey! hey! don't laugh okay!! I also like some chick movies, is that alright with some of you guys. If not suck on it. I like what I like i also like Opera too. so there. I sent a few to a woman, who's still pissed at me. But I figure if I let her go but still hang around, not too often. Perhaps I might get another shot. Hey, She's worth it I just didn't realize it until now. Perhaps too late but my motto don't ever say never. She made that mistake, by saying it to me. The ol' man told me once he'd said something awf ul to his girl friend, He spent a year apologizing wrote songs stood out her window begging to be forgiven, she would drown him. She kept tellin to get lost she didn't want him anymore. They both said and did hateful things one another. But the Ol' man just kept on plowing away. I asked him did he ever get another chance. He smiled and looked over to my grinning mother saying, yep. He's been dead for 24yrs. now. I'm 55yrs old now. He died January 1986. And every year I get into a funk this year was no different except for one difference i met some one over the internet was going pretty good, until January. And like clock work I went into my little funk and stayed there until February. During that time my internet went down along with my telephone and televison. Because of some idiot at the home office of my cable company decided I was late paying my bill. Now, i pride myself of paying my bills on time, sometimes ahead of time. For almost two months I did battle with the cable company. They were sure I would gladly pay the alleged areared payment. But unfortunately for them I too keep records very detailed records, almoost tio the point of being what the call anal. Trust me when I say this , screw me and I can be the most ruthless son of a bitch in the world. The one weakness corporations have is a shit load of attorneys. While am only one person thus I have more time on my hands. And believe me I used my time wisely gathering up all of my records from the last year. Then i went to the library looking up Corporate laws. Interesting wht you can accomplished when you've also lost you job, in the process, My mind was consumed with getting even no matter the cost. Unfortunately in my zest to win against the cable company I'd forgotten somebody. Though I could reconnect I still was unable to send out e-mails. and my phone was still not turned on....ie I could hear the phone ring but whenever i tried to speak the son of a bitch wen t dead. My friend called 2-3 times a day for a whole month. Unfortuantely i could't connect with her. finally after two weeks I discovered something a little corner in my e-mail, called a chat section. I only found out about it by accident. I won't go into details but needless to say i was able to converse with her. And all hell broke loose, basically and to the point quote unquote she didn't want to hear my reason for
not communicating with her. Unf ortunately my response to her was shall we say a stupid one. I acted rathe nonchallant, in other words I did the man thingand said " Okay" as if I didn't give a damn. I am hee to say I did care. Unfortunately I misintrepretated her response. Almost knocked me for a loop what she said next! I had no Idea what she said would feel like I'd been stabbed straight through my heart. And then it was on. A battle of getting even. Which I'm sorry to say I am very good at .I tore into like a pick through Ice. It was not pretty I said some very hurtful things . Before I knew it the damage had been done. yes I won but now she no longer wishes to hear from me. Thus my father. I wish he were here to advise me on how I can win her back the way my father did my mother.Everyday and Night I ache to hear her voice. I tried calling her and quite justly she hangs up . She says she blocked me from both sites. I don't believe it though , cause every time I go to this one site I see that she is on line. My other contacts don't show when they are on . She is the only one. I've got this nagging question if she didn't wish to hear my reasons for not contacting her. Why would she do so until I was able to answer. hmmmmm??? Perhaps I'm reading more into it than I should.